My day job is to take care of my father who has a terminal illness. The amount of money I receive as a carer is decent, but it is not the type of money I want to live on for the rest of my life. It does not pay for the luxuries that I want and so I do require to find other ways to make an extra income. I had considered starting up my cleaning business on the side. I could start up my cleaning business again and I'd have a client in a number of days. But as a house cleaner you have to work mornings and mid-day. Those times didn't suit me as my father would go without my care. I had to come up with a job where I could work from home and/or while with my dad. The one interest is very prominent and a core for me is business. I have an obsession with creating businesses. I am not sure if it is good or bad – I just enjoy it. I like branding, marketing, graphic design, working out the tools you'll need to operate it, the structure, the laws, etc. I like everything about business bar the companies that are not aligned to what is best for all. I had already created a business name for what I wanted to create – it was already in there – but I needed to start somewhere and make sure that it was in a niche that would make money.
I chose to go with a marketing agency for the first start of my company. I was happy with that decision because I find myself buying creating designs then doing social media marketing for fun. I have been doing it not-for-profit for a while now. Somehow I already knew that was a direction to go in first but never really bothered to take seriously. But now that I am really set on actually making the physical movement required to get clients and make money I noticed that I had/have a few fears, beliefs and small little worries. Now, I am not fully ready yet to approach local businesses and charge a fee for my services. I am giving myself about 4 – 5 months to really make use of cheap courses and doing free work for local business in exchange for testimonials. I know what is required for me to do but it needs to be structured and brought forward with the use of short cheap courses. I believe that this is a suitable direction to make money. We all need money to survive even if the world is getting chaotic – we still have a system that is crashing but still functioning right now and so best to do something you at least enjoy.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that business is a man's world and a female has no place in it
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that woman can't succeed in business
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear working with very wealthy people
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear making lots of money
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go in various different direction to distract myself from the main passion that I have that will help me and others make money.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that making lots of money is a bad thing.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being successful.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear leaving the old me behind and stepping into a whole new world where I am offering value to other people.
I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to fear the changes that I will have to make to myself when I start making the physical movements to really make the type of money I'd like to make.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have distracted myself from the core by disregarding the current world ssytem and how it functions.
I forgive myself that I Have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I should just give up and not care about making money to then stay as I am and where I am as I am living
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realise/understand that it is beneficial for me (my situation) to do what I enjoy and make money from it.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel bad about wanting to make a lot of money.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty about wanting more and better for myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel ashamed because I want more and better for myself in life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like I don't deserve more and better in my life
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not worthy to have a career/job that I like and can make lots of money from.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like I've got to give up on having a life that does buy me a farm, or the type of lifestyle I'd like to live and one that will help me prepare for the possible crash of the system.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear going up to local businesses
I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize/understand that with the time I have I can work on practicing everything I'll need to know and do for when I do go out to offer my services in exchange for testimonials.
I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to not see/realise/understand that in my situation earning more money will be of assistance and support
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realise/understand that I have proven to myself that I can handle any challenges that comes along with creating a business.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to doubt myself being able to handle challenging times in business.
When and as I see myself fearing leaving the old me behind – I stop and I breathe – I realise that it is necessary to step out of our comfort-zones in order to learn more of ourselves and change what does not assist and support us. A change is a very cool thing.
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