DAY 26: Fear And Nervousness When Speaking With Police

DAY 26: Fear And Nervousness When Speaking With Police

In my last blog post I wrote about an event that I witnessed where a mother and daughter were assaulted. In the afternoon on that very same day I told them that I would call to make a witness statement. I contacted the police link to make one and I was told that I could do it online. I chose to go with that option, but the options on the website weren't the ones I needed. I gave up half way through.

I was having problem with my phone so I didn't bother ringing back up. I left it alone for a day or so. I received a message from my sister who I talked to about the situation. She showed me a link where they were asking for witnesses to come forward and give a statement. I told the two again that I'd make a statement. This time I rang the station to give them my details.

I received a call this afternoon by police officer. He asked me what it was that I saw. He said it was consistent with all the other statements and that if needed would I testify - I said yes. The whole time talking to the police officer I did feel rather nervous. when talking to him.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel nervous when speaking to police officers

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being known by police officers.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hate police

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear police in case one of them is crooked.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear speaking with police about an event/situation that I witness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the police fishing around for information about me instead of focusing on the event that did take place.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being judged for the only time I had to go to court when nothing was recorded.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear authority that police officer have

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear authority figures.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear authority figures abusing their roles as police officers

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the whole policing system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear crooked police and them getting away with being crooked.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to worry about what police may think of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear speaking about exactly what I saw and someone trying to fool me by saying it did not happen.