DAY 6: All Psychopathic Issues/Problems Do Is Hurt People

DAY 6: All Psychopathic Issues/Problems Do Is Hurt People

For  some days I have felt down about the continued treatment that received  from these 5 individuals who have Psychopathic issues/problems that they impose upon me for almost 8 years now. I have been reacting within frustration, annoyance, anger and hurt to the memories that have come up and the knowing of how much it still impacts on my life today. All I see is the Psychopathic treatment that these people imposed upon me.  These people lied to me, manipulated me, used my care for another woman to turn me against myself by telling me I was obsessed when I just cared for that individual, they degraded me, used the interview to manipulate me, they didn’t assist or support me when I went to them for help out of the situation they were creating, they turned me against my psychologist, they told me I couldn’t go to anyone about this situation, they lead into a mental breakdown and impacted my relationships with my family, they used the Personal development courses as a way to manipulate me and further turn me against myself, they inferiorzed me, and tried to force me with a male who I later find out I was abused for and expected me to be with him as a partner. I didn’t know this boy and I didn’t want to be with any male. I tried to tell them I was interested in females for intimate partnership and they manipulated me to think I was playing games — further turning me against myself. They expected me to be with someone whom I never wanted to be with and to be raped and just live for that person because what it would have been as there want or desire within to be with any man. They needed hurting that boy, me and causing me to be homeless. They isolated me, hurt my mind, and wouldn’t let me continue with my personal development courses because I didn’t let anyone rape me and live a life I don’t want. These people who did this knew within full awareness of the horrors they were causing and tried to make me think and believe that they assisting and supporting me. There is no proof whatsoever that these people were ever of assistance and support. Now these people came back into my life to lie and blame me for everything they have done so that nobody finds out and I don’t see truth. They continued send me off to psychologists to make me think there’s something wrong me with there isn’t and try to continue to make me look bad in front of everyone else. When they were the ones responsible for all the trouble and damages they were creating for everybody. So the care that I had for woman was still there as they kept on blaming me and not letting me see the truth. I ended up asking that woman out because they didn’t let me see the truth or heal.

These people wanted me to be inferior so that they can continue to impose their Psychopathic issues/problems onto me thinking they’re what is best for all. These people didn’t do anything right and nor did they assist and support anyone by imposing their Psychopathic issues and problems onto me. They still do it to this day. 

They’re continueing  preventing me from doing my courses with people who do have paychopathic issues/problems within themselves. Most of the people that I have worked with wouldn’t even conceive to do that to someone. The Psychopathic individuals who sat there imposing and watching the impacts will not step a foot into my life as a personal buddy. The only I am still a live is because of the strength that I have within myself to continue to pick myself up from the Psychopathic issues and problems that are imposed upon me. 

There was never anything wrong with me. These people were the ones who were in the wrong. They even admitted it after they couldn’t succeed in getting what they wanted out of their Psychopathic issues and problems. 

What I see/realise/understand is that their Psychopathic issues and problems are not mine. They don’t define me they define these individuals. What they and have done all defines them. When these memories come up it’s all their behaviour that I see and I don’t me doing anything wrong as I was heavily manipulated by them. How they were able to manipulate me to that extreme is because I grow up knowing no different. I grow up in terrible situations and so they took advantage of vulnerability. Also they used their assistive and supportive position to manipulate me and they lied through their  teeth about everything so they were able to get away with it. They stuck for reach other even know they were in the wrong and they continued for years to entrap me in their own blame. They lied to everyone about me and the whole situation. 

However — I have to understand/see/realise that I am still here and must walk my process as well as pick myself up from the damage these people created/create within full awareness that it impacts upon my life as they sabotage my process continuously because they didn’t get what they wanted which is very, very, very Psychopathic. Trying to control who someone goes with as their partner in this life have them be with someone they don’t want to be with and be raped, continue to lie, betray, manipulate and sabotage their relationships with their psychologist to continue forcing them to be with a male and then lie about as welll blame the person you’ve been hurting is nothing short of Psychopathic. So —- what I see/realise/understand is these people have serious Psychopathic issues/problems to do that to someone who hasn’t done anything wrong to anyone. These people lied about everything and I was never going to let me live life for other people — to keep them happy whilst I rot. That’s not best for all. 

It is not self honesty —- it is death.

So I have realised for myself to not take any of these issues and problems personally. Because they have nothing to do with me. It’s just imposed upon me. I have several solutions to ensure these individual’s do not stop me from sharing myself and walking my course with someone who I choose to walk them with. 

I still have all the opportunities (believe it or not) to have woman as my partner, to own and run business, to make a lot of money and walk my process. These people didn’t defeat me. They’ve have just created damage that I have to pick up. These people will watch pick up their damage whether they like it or not. They wanted to keep themselves away from seeing the real damage they created so they can believe that they were right about what they did. Proof is in the pudding. They were never right. 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to take the Psychopathic issues and problems that were imposed and are imposed onto me by these people personally when they don’t define me they define these individuals who are imposing it onto me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into shock, trauma, anger, annoyance and frustration when I see all the Psychopathic issues and problems of these people beingnimposed onto me in the past as they were degrading and inferiorizing me for males

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe/think these individuals imposing their Psychopathic issues and problems onto me is my fault when these people happily manipulated me and watched the impacts within full awareness of the terror they were creating for me and other people involved

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe/think that any of this is my responsibility when I was strongly manipulated and taken advantage of by these individuals who were imposing their Psychopathic issues and problems onto me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react within extreme anger when I see all these memories come up in reaction to them continuing to delete my accounts and preventing me from walking my courses when it’s all about persistence and consistency to get my courses and share myself on the forums whether they like it or not

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe these people destroyed me when all they did was create more damage for me to pick up 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is too late to have everything that I want my life because of the damages that these people have imposed onto me with their Psychopathic issues and problems

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my age as an excuse to not go after the things I know will help me to make money in my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let the memories of what these individuals have done through imposing their Psychopathic issues and problems onto me get in the way of my routine that helps me continue to create who I want to be in my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realise/understand that in this life time I will get my courses and none of those individuals who have Psychopathic issues and problems will ever step a foot with me as personal buddy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am doing anything wrong by standing to these Psychopathic issues and problems these people have

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear people judging me because I am choosing to stand up to people who have Psychopathic issues and problems that they impose onto me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I hurt anyone when it was these people who imposed their Psychopathic issues and problems onto me that affected me and so other people

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame me when these peopleimpose their Psychopathic issues and problems onto me

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to not see/realise/understand that these people will watch me pick up the damages they’ve created whether they like it or not as they have to face their consequences either here or in the afterlife

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand that by me sharing the damages as my writing I am helping those individuals face their issue so and problems that they have created for themselves.

When and as I see myself reacting to all the Psychopathic issues and problems these people imposed onto me - I stop and I breathe - I realise that these issues and problems have nothing to do with me and everything to Do with these individuals who have these Psychopathic issues and problems that they impose onto me and so I can create a solution by/through creating another account as an act of not giving up on me and assisting supporting myself in my process. I act on the solution when it is time.

I commit myself to not react to the memories of all the Psychopathic issues and problems that were imposed onto me

I commit myself to stand by my routine and not be impatient about moving into a solution