DAY 2: Postponement and Resistance to Cleaning Up

DAY 2: Postponement and Resistance to Cleaning Up

My day starts off with me getting prepared to walk to my father's house. I spend the majority of the day with my dad. I start walking home in the afternoon and arrive at about 3 – 4 pm. I come home after a long walk to my house being a little messy.  

What I like doing when I get home is grabbing my laptop to then having a rest. The time would go by then I do not bother cleaning. The postponement would set in. I'd tell myself ''I'll do it tomorrow morning'' and that would never happen. The house gets a bit messy to a point where I can't take it anymore. It doesn't go to the extremes of messy or bad – As someone who has worked as a cleaner – My definition of messy may be not so messy to others. So – to be me it is still messy and I know to clean it. When the house is messy I feel down, depressed, unorganized and unclean. I pushed past the resistance and postponement this afternoon. I feel more clean, organised and happier that I've cleaned up the house.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to postpone the cleaning up of my house.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid the house by getting and leaving so that I don't have to see the state of it.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist cleaning the house. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to postpone and resist being organised, clean and happier.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let the house getting messy then clean it when I cannot bare it anymore 

When and as I see myself postponing and resisting the clean up of my house – I stop and I breathe – I realise that being clean and organised save me time and will make me feel a lot more happier.  

I commit myself to push past postponement and resistance.  

I commit myself to clean up right after I have a rest from walking