
So yesterday I did slightly react to seeing the message about being permanently banned. I did go into blaming myself but I have not done anything wrong. So for these people to do that as they continue to impose their issues/problems onto me and my process it is rather hurtful, annoying and frustrating -- But I have developed a solution to that so it's all about not reacting or going back through what has happened. That is something that I seem to do. Is i'll start challenging myself and it always comes back to the knowing that they're responsible so I will not give up on myself or stop doing what I am doing. As I know they're the ones with the issues/problems --- So it is not about challenging myself it is about remain stable despite there issues/problems being imposed onto me and my process.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am wrong or have done wrong to anyone in the situations these people have created by imposing their issues/problems onto me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in anger, frustration, annoyance and sadness when I see these people continuously impose their issues/problems onto me and my process.
I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand that it is all about creating more accounts to ensure these people don't get in the way of my process continuously or show to them that their issues/problems are not going to stop me from doing stuff that I enjoy, that is best for all, and walking my process in the most effective ways possible.
I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to not see/realise/understand that these issues/problems these people have lead them to delete my accounts has really nothing to do with me or ''me being the issue/problem'' it is all about those people and whatever they have going on within themselves that they need to deal with.
I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to take those individuals issues/problems that they keep imposing onto me personally when their issues/problems do not have anything to do with me but are their own to take responsibility for and stop blaming and imposing them onto someone else.
I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to not see/realise/understand that those people who continue to impose their issues/problems onto me are not helping anyone or anything but are continue to lock themselves into a cycle that does not assist or support them in anyway which is 'impose and blame'.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever consider giving up on myself because of the issues/problems those people have that keep impacting on their behaviours and so onto me because they abdicate the responsibility to the situation
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever believe the crap/shit those people told me, about me in the past and/or still believe it now to this day when these people knew nothing and were completely ignorant and abusive -- as part of their imposing issues/problems onto another.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realise/understand that it is all about me breathing, continuing to create an account to assist and support myself and walk my process in the most effective ways.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to doubt what I have gathered from all the memories of what these people have done.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to doubt where I stand iwthin myself about these situations when those individauls impose their problems/issues onto me through deleting my accounts.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like I am wrong because I stand up for myself against people who impose their issues/problems onto me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realise/understand that I work exceptionally well with people who do not impose their issues/problems onto me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel pissed off about how long it takes me to create different accounts.
I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to to not see/realise/understand that I am not responsible for the issues/problems these people have within themselves.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear these people not stopping their issues/problems being imposed onto me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I'm going to give up on assisting and supporting myself the best ways that I know how
I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to not see/realise/understand that me creating accounts is not bad or wrong it is just a solution that i have to the problems/issues these people have been imposing onto me for so many years
When and as I see myself reacting to the messages or seeing my accounts get delete - I stop and I breathe - I realise that it is just these people imposing their issues/problems and has nothing to do with me, so just move it into a solution by/through creating another account and continuing on with my process.
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