DAY 16: Healthy Balance Between Communication and Relationship With Self and Others

DAY 16: Healthy Balance Between Communication and Relationship With Self and Others

In the process of getting to know a potential partner I did not give time to my life. For four days I spent time communicating with a woman. I developed habits like picking up my phone and checking messages, I did not focus on changing the points that I did notice coming up,  I obsessed about her lots, I was in a honey-moon phase as we got to know each other and it was this that lead to the potential to be now not really existent. A consequence of not giving the time I need to myself and the life I have mean't that I did not change anything when/during the opportunity was present. Every moment spent with a person is an opportunity to change and I didn't do it. By not changing what is not best for all inside ourselves that affects relationships could lead to a breakdown in relationships and communication. If we gift the change to our relationships by working on changing the not so great about ourselves then relationships can be about growth, expansion and self-support – Not about energy and riding waves in ignorance of what needs to be changed.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have invested too much time into the communication and relationship building with Person S that I did not give the time and attention to me that would have made the communication and relationship building process much more beneficial and comfortable.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have not had a balance of giving time to me and relationships.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to build relationships that are purely built on energy instead of real platform of support.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have not listened to that voice in my head that kept showing me the common sense and solution to communication breakdowns in relationships.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to obsess over the communication and relationship building process  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have not gifted myself the time and so the change that could have kept a relationship in my life  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get so obsessed with the communication and relationship process that I forget my life and push the person away because I don't want to face me  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the person S for the communication breakdown  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny me the gift of change through self-forgiveness and self-corrective application by remaining ignorant through not writing, not reflecting, and so not changing while the opportunity of the relationship is there.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel great regret for not changing myself or being aware of what I say in relationships.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have not been aware of the breathing during interactions and communication with people so that I do not speak out of emotions/feelings that will lead to something I later regret or became the reasons for miscommunication.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear how people react to what I say.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear speaking with other people in case I say something that they react to when it is all about how I say and if they proceed to react to that after I've put consideration into how to say then that does not define me.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to worry so about what I will say in case of a relationship failing. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear communication ceasing  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand that being aware of the 4 count breath, writing everyday and putting what I'm going to say to someone through a filtration process I am able to be the best I can be in relationships and rest assure that I've done my best if a relationship does not work out.  

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to not see/realise/understand that a relationship is all about learning where my weakness and strengths are through interactions, communication, and also learning as well as assisting/supporting another to do the same.  

When and as I see myself  giving too much to the communication and relationship – I stop and I breathe – I realise that by gifting myself the time I need for me to change my life and who I am within relationships and communication I can be the best in those relationships so that they are assistive and supportive and I can function in them the best of my abilities.  

I commit myself to have a healthy balance of communication and relationships  

I commit myself to have a healthy balance with communication with me and my relationship to myself