DAY 15: REACT NO MORE

DAY 15: REACT NO MORE

I had my accounts on the forums deleted again today. I didn't do anything wrong they just deleted my account. When I saw that my account was deleted I immediately had some backchat, frustration, annoyance, and went slightly back into memories where I opened up wounds of the EVIL psychopathic issues/problems that were imposed onto me by 5 individuals. Now, everything is perfectly fine in my life. I do not need to go back into the memories of what these psychopathic issues/problems that these people imposed onto me. You know I've come up with a solution to all the fucked up damage that they left me to pick up and I'm still walking my process, going for my courses and doing what I enjoy in my life. What I don't need is the reactions or to go back unless I have to change a point that I'm wanting to change on. But, there is no point right now other than to stop reacting to the issues/problems that these 5 individuals impose onto me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to start backchatting about my account being deleted from the forums right where I get comfortable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel frustrated and annoyed about the psychopathic issues/problems as the games that those 5 individuals play in how they continue to delete my accounts so that they can continue cause conflict, problems and whatever else they do it for. Which does not in any way benefit anyone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create all sorts of images and ideas of those 5 individuals inside my mind when they delete my accounts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my writings are bad in anyway shape or form

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to go into blame of my writings for my account being deleted when my writings were not a problem at all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create all sorts of bizarre imaginations of how these 5 individuals behave when they continue to delete my accounts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to bring up memories of the horric events/situations those 5 individuals created through there psychopathic issues/problems theat they imposed unto me when they delete my accounts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to start having all sorts of reactions come up to the memories that flicker in my mind when I start to react to/towards the accounts being deleted.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to not see/realise/understand that those psychopathic issues/problems that those 5 individuals impose onto me is a direct reflection of who they are and has noting to do with me or my process in anyway whatsoever and so all that has to be done is to create another account and continue with my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel frustrated and annoyed by these people who continuously impose their issues/problems onto me and allow it to impact me to such the extent that I'll start reacting and opening wounds that I am busy allowing to heal as I've created solutions for what they have created in/by/through imposing their psychopathic issues/problems onto me and my process.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to not see/realise/understand that those individuals are their own problem and have nothing to do with me in my life.

I forgive myself that i hvaen't accepted and allowed myself to fantasize about these people being my friends in this life time when that would be very detrimental for me and my process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allwoed msyelf to not see/realise/understand that people with psychopathic issues/problems are a disservice to me in my life and cannot enter it on a physical or personal buddy level.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realise/understand that those 5 people never cared about my life therefore they are not a good fit for me and will not enter into my life as personal buddy or in any physical way as there is no trust tat will ever be there.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to not see/realise/understand that we can work in the same environment but not communicate in a personal buddy way or physical

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to not see/realise/understand that so long as I continue to create opportunity for me to do the things I want for myself in my life I will be perfectly fine and continue to walk my process.

I forgive myself that I Have accepted and allowed myself to let those psychopathic issues/problems that those people have effect me when they delete my accounts by/through falling back into memories of the horrific evil that they imposed onto me and so hurting other people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/relaise/understand that those people cannot hurt me ever again so long as I realise I am not responsible for there issues/problems and continue to create solutions for there imposing behaviours.


When and as I see myself backchatting, and/or reacting to these 5 individauls deleting my accounts - I stop and I breathe - I realise that everything is still the same and nothing has changed it is just about create a new account and moving the same way we've been for many years as nothing changes and to continue with everything I am doing in my life to make it BEST FOR ALL.