DAY 30: Too Much Time In Front Of A Computer Screen

My normal routine is to spend the entire day working. Yesterday and today I did not feel like biking riding or walking a long distance. I woke up feeling physically tired, and like I had no energy for the exercise. When I got out of bed then had breakfast I was feeling a lot better. I did feel guilty for not going to see Person A whom I care for/work for but some days I do need to myself. I like to have two days off a week so I can just stay at home and recoup. But by the end of the day I feel like I would have benefited more from going out instead of being in the house all day.

I spent the last two days couped up in the house working on projects for new clients. I do enjoy working on marketing other people's businesses but I find that I don't like the experience of thinking and processing knowledge/information for too long. A lot of thought goes into the potential of a business in my mind so that it can come to life. I enjoy building working on these projects but I do not remain so consistent with the tools when I am in a lot thought. What I am physically doing when I am processing and working on these projects is sitting in front of a computer.

I spend a lot of time in front of a computer screen. My focus is not on my body when in front a computer. I can feel like it's just stuff in my head region where everything is being proceeded. The ideas, concepts, future projections, everything I've read, vocabulary, etc. It's all focused there. Nothing gets focused anywhere else. I find it very easy to forget the tools and be less aware of my body when in front of computer screen for long periods. I do at every hour go off to do a flexibility workout for 30 minutes but consistent not kept with that. What I do is spend too much time on the projects and not enough time away from the computer screen.

I do like being out every day. I do not require to spend the majority of my day working on projects. I can spend the time on them at night and still get work done. If I am working too long of a day I do get bored, want to watch movies instead, and then don't get as much done. If I am out of a day I come home then I have the time at night to do everything and because I didn't spend the entire day working on projects in front of a computer -- I don't have that boredom come up, I don't want to indulge in entertainment, I know the work has to be done, etc. So, I get then done and am more productive by having been out throughout the day and not in front of a computer screen for so long.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to spend my days off in the house all day in front of a computer screen and not want to go anywhere else.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to spend way too many hours of a day in front of a computer.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to waste my days of sitting in front of a computer screen doing projects that I could do at night

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to coup myself up inside on my days off.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make the decision not to go anywhere before I've gotten out of bed and had breakfast.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty about not going to Person A's house yesterday and today.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear person a thinking/believing that I need a break from him.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to not see/realise/understand that I do need some days just to myself

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realise/understand that for my days off I can go out and about to be away from computer screens and working too much.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not have a work life balance

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realise/understand that sometimes we need a break away from computer screens and the internet despite working on the projects as being something I enjoy.

I forgive myself that i Haven't accepted and allowed myself to not see/realise/understand that going out with friends or joining groups to speak other people over the weekend and being social is a better way to spend my days of instead of being in front of a computer screen.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be a bit of a hermit on my days off.

I forgive myself that i haven't accepted and allowed myself to join my passion and socialisation together by finding groups in my community that house the people that share the same interests as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lose consistency with being aware of the breath when being in front of a computer and working on projects.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be addicted to the internet

I commit myself to look up groups of people in my community that have the same passions as I do

I commit myself to not spend all my time on my days off in front of a computer screen.