I wanted to start the cleaning process last week. When I would considered doing some cleaning I would be faced with a resistance. All of a sudden I felt tired, heavy, started to complain slightly, made a couple excuses and then came to a decider to postpone it. The cleaning needs to be done so that I can leave the place. If I am to leave it too long I'll be left with a lot of tasks/jobs and little time left to do it.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to postpone cleaning up the place for the next tenants to come in.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid getting all the cleaning done
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel suddenly tired when I consider cleaning
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel suddenly heavy when I consider cleaning
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to complain about having to do a thorough clean up.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/desire to complain about cleaning and packing getting in the way of my routine.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have lots of time when really I have lots to do in a small amount of time.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to prefer to focus on what I like/enjoy instead of getting the packing and cleaning done so I can move out into my new place and start my routine back up again where I do focus on what I like and enjoy.
When and as I see myself feeling tired, heavy, resistant and want to postpone doing a thorough clean - I stop and I breathe - I realise that it is best to clean the house now with the time I have so I am not left with little time and a lot to do.
I commit myself to use the time I have in the day to clean and pack for the move.
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